回忆

让我来代替你走下去好吗。

不知从哪天开始， 七月三十一日 也不再是我的快乐日子。今天，从我话题中有在提起了妳。让后还在车子里听见 收悉的旋律。Damien Rice的 Cold Water 既然在同一种空气中 听见了这首歌。

我已经忘了。。真的忘了 应为我已习惯了妳。一个固執的妳，爱耍脾气的妳，爱逗我生气的妳，爱无理处闹得妳。还有。。。。还有。。。

我知道如果妳还在 妳一定会说“你试看看忘记我”。

让我帮妳圓夢。

Writing instruments and characteristic

“Writing with an ink pen mean I already grown up” this word I said when I was still a kindergarten student and holding my headmaster red pen and show to everyone in my class. My kindergarten name is a joke for me in my life. Every time when I said my kindergarten name no one is really believe me. Ya, I am student of Convent kindergarten. The headmasters name me as Donald Lim because I am the most talkative student in the class with thousands of question a day. I need to thank to the headmaster cause her giving me an opportunity to study in the most difficulty financial situation of my parent. RM5 per year is the cheapest kindergarten fees I never heard in my life and it is especially for me little Donald. I never know I was treated that special until a day one of my classmate said it loudly in the class. “My mom said Donald don’t have father so his behavior will be very bad everyone don’t play with him”. At the moment I only release father is a must in a family for a child. From that day on I start to keep quite in the class I not dare to make any single sound, I scare that people will notice me and mention this topic again. One day headmaster calls me to her room and we have a short talk. I forgot the conversation content. But the only word I remember is “You are special to me not because you are single parent child, you are special to me because you have a strong heart.”

Today I am a person who writing with an ink pen or even a marker in front of hundred over people. But am I a strong heart as what the headmaster said, I not so sure. But something I am sure is writing with an ink pen does mean I am a man or grown up. But it means we start to be stubborn to some method. When we are a child we write with a pencil, everything we write wrong we do correction and make sure we won’t repeat the same mistake again. But when we growing up we start to using pen everything we wrote start to be so firm, if anything wrong we start to know how to cover it up with the liquid corrector. When we at the high school, we no longer can use liquid corrector but we start to use a line to cut the mistake we have done. When coming to the university and the society we start using computer and printing. We start to question and argue about the mistake we have made.

Take 100% Responsibility for yourself

We must take our personal responsibility cause when we cannot change the situations, the seasons, or the wind, but we can change ourselves. There is a wonderful story told about a man who is out walking on night and comes upon another man down on his knees looking for something under the street lamp. The passerby inquires as to what the other man is looking for. He answers that he is looking for his lost key. The passerby offers to help and get down on his knees and helps him search for the key. After an hour fruitless searching, he says, “We’re looked everywhere for it and we haven’t found it. Are you sure that you lost it here?” The other reply, “No, I lost it in my house, but there is lighter out here under the streetlamp.” It is time to stop looking outside yourself for the answer.

There is only one person responsible for the quality of the life you live. That person is you. In fact, most of us have been conditioned to blame something outside of ourselves for the parts of our life we don’t like. We blame our parent, our bosses, our friend, the media, our client, our spouse, the weather, the economy, our astrological chart, our lack of money or anyone or anything we have pin the blame on. We never want to look where the real problem is-ourselves.

别再如果

今天的心情 就如同今天的雨

今天让我感到人生也来也很渺小 一通电话让我心情忽然沉重了起来

我好友的爸爸去世了 电话另一方的她 让我感到很无助

我既然没办法说去 能够安慰她的话。

对不起 我只能为你写以下的文章

第一个怀抱

可以的话别如果 应为如果换不回结果

可以的话别对不起 对不起不能让我不想起

回忆太多 记忆很少 没办法让我把每一棵狠狠抓牢

他总是觉得他给了太少 却没发现我没办法戒掉

“以为” 让我相信还有明天 “以为”也让我们失去很多。

我想有你给的一切像一条疤在我心中不想忘掉

我知道再也没有机会回到你的拥抱

你让我自到生活不能“如果”

Blue December

Today is 335th day of the year,There are 30 days remaining until the end of the year. We can also name blue December, cause everyone is recalling back what they had done this year. The foot step of the people at the street are starting to slowing down. Too quite until you can hear the slowing down foot step of the street.That why the blue December also know as silent month. People around starting to listening than talking. Listen to every single sound from the surrounding. is also month to cleaning up every thing to greeting the Christmas. I am cleaning my bookshelf and found my 2010 diary book.Open back my diary of the year. Found that all the plan had been wrote at the starting of the year had been messing up seen The middle of the year. The target had set, only achieve half way. Another half of the year is completely out of planing that can clearly be seen from the 4 month blank diary that i stuck it and forgotten with my bundle of book.

Free Gift Diary

Start my day with what i want.

I still remember 5 years ago from today i had mad an very friendly old lady In a book store.

The book store lady asking me "what do i need and what kind of book are you looking for". [She is hanging with a smiling face]

I answer "Nothing Just look around and i don't know what i want to buy yet" [I turn back and face to the bookshelf]

I feel that very normal for me to look around, cause i really don't know what i need from the store*

"ERmmm ...than i know what you need now" The old lady reply me confidentially.

She went to the counter and took out a free gift diary book and give it to me and said two sentence that i will never got in my life.

"若者、自分も自分のことが知らん人は可哀そうだろう。ただの犬は、しっぽを追いかけていると同じ場所で回ってのように、若者頑張ってよ 運命は私たち自身によって作成される"

Can't sleep a few night thinking about this question. Start from that year i always writing my own diary and set my goal for every year. But when i look back to this few year diary book, 4 or 5 month of the diary is all empty. Non of it is fill until the end of the year. Like what the old lady said we will look like a dog chasing their if we don't know our self well.Buying a diary is excuses for me to set another target for coming year.But for me this year i want to do it different. i want to complete my task. I don't want keep on turning at the same places of my life. Instead of buy new one i will finish this old one first. Doing something different for this Blue December.

An Apologize phone call

Making a phone call to China, Your word never fail to surprise me. Thank for always be there when i am need. I feel so proud looking at your success and i will do the same too.